Random Thoughts and cake...a quick post

My shower was a few weeks ago. It was originally planned for June 10th but my mother passed away the week before.
Because my shower was held in a restaurant, we weren't allowed to bring in any outside baked goods.
My mother was a bit let down about this and began searching for a cake for us to have with the family.
She kept telling my husband and sister to find me a cake.
After she passed away we found a check she had written to pay for the cake.
It made me cry and I just cancelled the check and forgot all about a cake. My mind was elsewhere.
Sunday afternoon, Husband surprised me with this lovely cake.
All I could say was "pretty, pretty!" and jump up and down.
My baby girl's name is misspelled but it didn't matter. It should read "Asha and Roman"
I was so overjoyed and didn't want to cut it. lol!
I think mom would have been please with this cake. I went to bed so happy last night.


A couple of days ago while cleaning out the office files, I found my old paper BBT charts.
I always kept a paper journal of my ttc and and electronic one.
I looked at  meticulous I was and wow, how much bding we were doing.
Broke into a crying spell.
I looked at the end of some of those charts to see the bfns I had recorded and the plummeting bbt.
I felt each one that I read.
Honestly, I think that I have PTSD from my infertility battle.
Maybe I am sensitive, but I believe that it does leave a mark on your life whether you succeed in your quest of motherhood or give up.
Part of you has been greatly touched.
I'm not one of those women that forget about the struggle or the struggle of others.

I have contracted another cold or bug despite it being record degrees hot here in Chicago.
Off to the doctor, hope to chat again later.
Maternity photo shoot pics to come later this week.